Bring on the Rain - Part 5

[Yoyowife]

Hi Suzy Q,
Hope things are going well.

Hugs, Yoyo

[SueS]

Hi-

Things are going okay. I have a nagging cold right now that's getting me down a little.

H's mood went up and then down again. He hasn't been mean or rude, but quiet again the past couple of days. I guess they say it takes time, right? He's been complaining that work hasn't been wonderful and that he feels dumpy because he hasn't been able to work out as much. I guess that could contribute to the situation too. H has been busy at work, but his loan amounts have been on the lower end, which cuts him out of bonuses. Not something he can help, as his calls are all in-bound so he can't pick and choose the people who need larger loans. With all of the problems in the lending institutions, they've put even more restrictions on his end of the business too. My FIL worked for the railroad for many years. H has ALWAYS wanted to do the same but has never gotten into it. He knows what some hard work could do for our futures as far as a good retirement and pension. He had a long talk with his uncle (also a railroad man) when we were in IN. His uncle told him to call this weekend and they'd talk some more. H said that this time he really wants to do it.

Even though H has been quiet, we've still been talking more about things we haven't talked about in a long time. It's been nice. We still need to talk about Retrovaille. I really want to go. I think it would really open things up for us. I have so much spinning around in my head and I just don't want to keep it locked up any more.

D4 is WONDERFUL. For some reason, she has a fascination with breasts right now. She calls them boobies. She walked out into the living room a few nights ago with one of my shirts on. It was a v-neck shirt and I could see she had one of my bras on underneath. She proudly announced that she had a pretty shirt on, shook her shoulders and said.....And do you like my boobie-trap too? Yes, she calls a bra a boobie trap. No, we aren't that free spirited in our house, so I don't know where she gets it all. I have a feeling that her ears are WIDE open when she's around my nieces.

Work has been going okay. Our company is having an Oktoberfest celebration on Oct. 11th. I'm helping set it all up and am getting very excited about it. I ordered custom steins for our employees and my bosses and I are looking for some great Lederhosen & Dirdl dresses. Fun! Looks like my parents are going to come to town and sweep D4 up north for the weekend. No worries that weekend.

Well, time to go and get to work.

Have a good day. SueS

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Hi Sue! Sorry you're not feeling well.

Last week, Saffie had asked you this:

I just wanted to clarify....has your H actually said he is working on the M and staying with you? That he is no longer going to have contact with OW?

and I can't help but notice that you never answered her. Sort of like a month or so ago when you avoided my direct and awkward question:

Have you made any decisions about what you'd like to do re: emotional and physical closeness with your husband, in light of your current situation?

a) ignore the weekend like nothing happened, and go back to being distant

b) ignore the weekend like nothing happened, and try to stay close emotionally and physically

c) talk to him about the weekend, say it was a mistake, and go back to being distant

d) talk to him about the weekend, say it was nice and desireable, and vow to try to stay close emotionally and physically

e) other??

I'm curious as to what you think. You either need a new plan, or some resolve to get back to the OLD plan, IMHO.

and, after not responding to that one either, I asked you again, and you finally said:

Puppy, I didn't want to ignore your question. We didn't really ignore the topic of what happened over the weekend. We didn't do a lot of talking about it either though. It happened and it didn't seem to scare him away. He's kept in touch. I know that probably doesn't seem like an answer you were looking for but nothing really came of it. It just happened.
. . .

I know I've let H get closer the past week and yes, it will hurt all over again if I let it continue and he just walks all over me again. I've seen that side to him lately that I love. It's been hard staying distant from that.

and I said:

I know. It's just that I think you have to.

Puppy

And I still do.

Peace,

Puppy

[Yoyowife]

Sues,
Kids are great aren't they? Booby trap, that is so cute!

When my DD20 was about two she walked in the bathroom as H was getting out of the shower. I was in the other room and I heard keep saying, "What dat, What dat"? I heard H say, "Go see your mama". DD walked in the room with me and asked, "Why does Daddy have a bone in his booty?" H then started making sure the door was closed when he took a shower!