Ok, I just got back from the doc's. It was a short visit...so you know that means good news. The biospy results came back negative so the cancer has not spread. Plus, the original site has shrunk considerale so I am reacting very well to the treatment. He thinks that I should be done with treatment in Nov/Dec. Then every six months I will go in for a scan to make sure it does not reappear. I should be jumping for joy, but I am just numb. Dont know why. I emailed STBXH as well and he called me to say he was so happy to hear that. I thanked him told him I appreciate it. He said he was sorry for pestering me these last couple of days (all of the calling and emailing that I have not responded to) but he has been worried because I have been so sick. He wants me to know that he is there for me if I need him....I'm not even going to comment on that. I just said thanks, I'm doing good, have just been busy and now I am getting ready to leave again so bye.
Feeling sad today. Maybe because part of me feels like I should have my partner here to feel the relief with, but I dont so it makes me feel even lonelier. Make sense? I am going to just try and acknoledge the pain and then try and let it go. I dont want to carry it around with me. Need to listen to some happy music and find something to laugh at.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
