Vent away BBJ....I don't think you are being immature at all. Unless you have totally let yourself go and taken him totally for granted, why would you still have to compete? I agree 100%....the problem is we are not in a "normal" situation. We have been dealt some cards....either we keep playing or we fold em. If you decide to keep playing, than accept the hand that was dealt and continue to work like hell to win the game. The prize must be worth it. Do not be so hard on yourself....from where I am sitting and knowing a little of your history, i don't think that your "demands" are too much to ask for. You can do this ... you can make yourself the better option....your H has to give you a real shot....in my book if they (WAS) do not cut all communication with OP (other person), the battle will be long and hard.
