To the Max!!!!

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Howdy all. Biting the bullet and starting a thread here in MLC. I've been around on various forums for a while and most recently have resided in Hopefulness. That's me, looking for scraps of what is good and hopeful, at least I keeping tying to be hopeful. I've been dealing with my WAS/MLC/EA/PA detached H who has been a poor roommate sleeping on the couch for 4 years. His major disconnect was 1 year before that. Yes, 5 years. I am tired and worn out and trying to force some type of change, whatever it may be.

That's not my reason for starting this thread on this day. Right now I am frazzled to the maximum, over the edge. One more thing just got added to the heap.

My H called within the hour, one of my dearest horses is having some problems. The first assessment was worse than it seems now an hour later, yet I hesitate to say he will be fine. He is 25 years young, he has mentored so many kids and adults and is recognized and well known by many people. He loves people, he loves to please and be special.

Mr Cutie horse is very special for many reasons, but he is also the horse I rode during our wedding ceremony. Mother Mare that my H rode....we lost her a month ago. Tomorrow is another wedding anniversary. To think of losing both of these wonderful animals so close together and so near to the anniversary they carried us to our beginning of together....This is too much, I am over the edge. I am a wreck waiting to happen. The timing of all this is happenstance? I don't understand this, I can't fathom why.

I could sure use some positive prayers or cyber vibes please. Mostly for Mr Cutie but me too. TIA