I have recently began working as i was a fulltime mom for 3 years. He pays for bills, mortgage, car, phones and grocery shopping and controls everything.
I should stand up to him and I wish I had when he came home with a love bite which was 2 months ago. I had proof that he was cheating before because I was snooping in his things and recording his conversations, which resulted in me loosing respect by making empty threat.
Latley I have changed as I dont react, act suspicious, call him, cry, beg and nag. The atmosphere at home is really nice and he took me to Italy. He has also told me that he has changed and wouldnt cheat again, if i say anything without proof he will call me crazy. I wish i wasnt so weak and intimidated by him, before i met him (10yrs ago) i was a confident energetic woman who loved life.
I have wasted so much of my life worrying about him and what i should do, its time to change and have more faith in myself. I wanted someone to love me for who I am and accept me but for the last 2 years I just feel like why am i not good enough, why am i trying to win his love. I gave him all my heart now it feels like it shatered into pieces.
