I don't want to survive, I want to live

[cat03]

hey all, lurker here. I barely post, but I had to come and put this up, perhaps you all can help me a bit.

At this point stbx is at his lowest and horribly depressed, we are not getting back together, i'm just there for him and he is lonely. He, umm, tried to cut his wrists the other day, to cover it up he burned them and people bought his story, but I pulled the truth fromhim, i'm terribly shocked, I've known this man for 13 yrs, he would've never done this. He is beating himself up for all his done, he truly feels sorry for his past but he won't stop putting himself down and believes there is no future nor hope in any way for him, it truly is sad.

I tried to remind him to go to the dr, hope he does, the thing it is he isn't my H really anymore and I don't want to be tied to his rollercoaster again, i'm finally able to be happy, but I can't leave him for dead either.

He doesn't want to be alone and asks to come over now and then, he is still going to church but he looses hopes and thinks nothing is ever going to help. I hope his dr and therapist help him, I know he is hanging on mostly for the kids and does try his best to be a good father.
Fruitcake (aka "ow") wont' return his stuff, he is trying to get away from her but she wont' let him come get his things and won't stop txting him, she decided to go to his place while he wasn't there to drop off his stuff and ... she cleaned the place (earlier on the week she was sending him hate txts and telling him not to come to her place ever) ...she put away his laundry and rearranged the furniture...just sick sick sick.
He believes all the bad stuff she tells him about him (he's inmature a big kid a bad father, etc etc) , he calls me and asks me "am I really like that?" SIGH, why does he STILL believes her?

Sorry, this is getting too long, but I'm trying to still find the fine line between helping him and let him sort it out himself. I truly now see that he left our M thinking his misery was due to me--he has told me a few times now how he wishes this whole thing would've never happen, how he is now alone.

Hugs to all))))))))))) thanks for listening