All good points. I don't know what my H is thinking. Part of me thinks he is relieved that I basically "let him go" so he feels like he can be nicer without worrying he is giving me false hope. I'm just so tired of this arrangement and I'm not getting any younger...I don't want to spend any more time wasted and being alone and sad. That doesn't mean I'm gonna jump the next man that comes along, but I think I need to stop focusing on reconciliation with husband....it clouds my judgement and makes everything in life less enjoyable.
I can say that it IS interesting to me that the first time in 8 months that he's been civil to me was after I ripped him a new one...what's up with that? Also, what's up with the letter his counselor told him he should write so he could "focus on the good in me and get rid of his anger"? Must be some exercise in preparing yourself for moving on??? Who knows.
