It was tough at the school tonight. Seeing the other couples together...and us not being a union is very strange and uncomfortable. I tried to keep emotions in check, but I did feel the ping a few times.
I could not wait with her as we went from class to class. How can she be soo cold and mean...to actually want me out of the house. Doesn't she realize that I have no choice but to fight and do everything I could do to survive???
She is certainly not using her judgement. WE initially had a babysitter watching the kids, but I suggested my folks could do it so we could save some money (Actually--I was the one that paid) She insisted on the babysitter anyway since we already committed to her. To my surprise, she was on crutches from breaking her toe. (My daughter suffered a severe ankkle sprain last week and was also on crutches) Why would my wife do this?? Was she trying to prove a point to have me spend money unnecessarily??
Well.. the babbysitter needed more help than the kids. My son pooped in his pants, my daughter fell down off her crutches and didn't finish her homework. I silently shrugged my shoulders...wondering what to do next.
I paid her her weekly allowance and will be going to the Batmitzvah at the end of the week. I got a $250 money order and included my wife. She said it was not enough and should pay $350. Maybe right, but not under these circumstances. She could make up the difference.
I have really begun to hate her......I look at her and now wonder what I ever was thinking. Her true colors have shown through. Now we must battle...and there will be no winners.......I just hope my children are okay. I will do my best to protect them, but they will be unfortuantely dragged into this. I have no choice....She put us here-----
