Still Supportive but very distant

[JWS]

This is nuts, she keeps texting me and its driving me insane. two things. first I said I was going to put her out of my head, well that did not help her coming to me crying has effected me and broke down a few walls I worked hard to build, that night she started with playful texts, movie quotes back and forth very friendly, then a few days of nothing. it makes things very confusing, will you just leave me alone to my resentment unless you are willing to work on things.

then today more text with more money problems. she never really asked for anything but she spent a while telling me what things cost and then that she was very very tight. yeah sooooo!! so am I, i don't make enough money to support two totally independent lives that both love to live above their means and no income from her besides school lones. what the heck is she thinking. sure i'll sit be and take care of all of the bad bankrupting myself in the process when shes off enjoying her adventures and sharing all of the good with others.

sorry no bitterness here, like i said she did not ask for anything, I am just not sure what happens when she does. there is no extra money for her, its all going to take care of the life she walked away from, but at the same time if she starts defaulting on bills and crap I am still responsible for that kind of stuff. wow I am sure glad she did not choose the school that was right here, that would have made was to much sense. actually I guess I am glad she did not stay here, it much easier to not be around her if she can't be her instead of this damn alien.

sorry enough ranting, I am thinking of buying a punching bag to let loose one instead of wining about it here.

take care all