Looking for some more patience!

[kissak]

Thank You Cinders....I feel like I am still on that rollercoaster. Will it ever stop?

I tried as hard as ever to not answer my H's calls yesterday, but last night when I went to open my cellphone, he called at the same time. I almost shut my phone, but then I would have been fussed at for hanging up on him, so I said hello.

He apologized to me for how he acted yesterday. He said he should have thought things through first. Then he goes on to say how he wants us to be more than just friends or parents together. Uh, well, what would that make us? Weird people? lol

I didnt talk to long. Just stated that I werent going to change my mind about the date on the papers. By law, I can and will have that date remain.

I almost think he is one of those that has to have a divorce to have closure. That it might be the only way he would ever come back. He doesnt want the same marriage and getting a divorce would make sure of that to him and in his mind.

But, I dont know what he is thinking. Dont need to anymore. He just aggravates me to death with this friend thing. I told him its almost impossible to be friends while going through this. He said, thats why we need to talk about it.

Whatever.