Havent posted for a while-no change in the situation.He calls quite regularly and is curious I know about my new house but I havent invited him up or said when are you next coming to see me etc like I used to. Im getting used to being alone,not constantly checking my phone for missed calls,going over our last conversation in detail etc.He said when I asked how are you "not so good" he is worried about his parents his job and his health(another illness this time an infection)When I said "shall we both just let the soliciters sort out the money? he said then we would lose control. He is giving me maintenence.He did sound quite blue when he rang on Sunday. I did say I feel I cant move on as long as we are still married because being married means something to me is that silly? He said no it wasnt silly.My gut feeling is that he is still"swinging" and is unsure what he wants. I think he can sense that I am withdrawing but truthfully I cant give up hope on us.Its now 16 months post bomb-separated for most of them though we keep up contact.Obviously he is not as happy as he thought he would be when he left.I guess time is on my side.Meanwhile life goes on I am not happy,but busy and content,not so anxious. Can live without him-am doing.Wouldnt have thought so last year at this time.
