Just journaling. NOTHING going on today in terms of H. I know we are not supposed to read too much into what the WAS does/says, but last night was really weird. I mean he started talking about how we need to get ahead on finances, and suddenly logged off. Sure, there could be any number of reasons why he did this, but this was the closest we've had to future talk in awhile and he bolted so to speak immediately after, and hasn't reached out since. I am just curious more than anything about what I might be able to do from my side to draw him back into that kind of conversation, without doing it directly...I was not pushy in any way on that conversation, didn't jump on the "we" and validated his going to Mexico even without mentioning me joining...
I've drafted an email about the budget. I get paid on Friday, so ideally I'll send it on Wednesday or Thursday but only after he initiates contact again. I feel comfortable with this as last night he said "sorry we are so poor". I am sure that on some level he knows we are so poor because of the separation, and that this is because of him. Of course I am not going to refer to it in ANY way. So here is my plan, unless something drastic happens to change it:
Send an email with the budget attached showing that we have a substantial shortfall next month, and mentioning that it's because we didn't have any leftover from this pay period like we'd originally thought. Mention once that it's good that we are paid up on his school, that this is the one good thing to come of it.
I will not make suggestions for how to cut things from the budget, but am mentioning what I have cut for myself, so hopefully he can get a bit of a clue. Then I'm just saying, any suggestions please let me know?
The next paragraph says that the end of October is better due to stock money, not sure how much it will be, but would like his input on how best to use this money.
Like I mentioned, he felt REALLY put out in the past when he had to do budget kind of things, so I think it will be better for me to continue, as long as I make it clear that I really need his help and advice.
Any thoughts here? I feel like some dominoes need to be pushed...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
