I just feel like crying all the time. I miss him like crazy and just want to tell him that I miss him. I know it would probably not do anything, at least not good. Because if he is not ready to reciprocate the feeling (anymore) then it would be a huge backslide and all my days of "patience" will have been for nothing. However I don't want him thinking we are really done and over with and going out and doing something stupid.
I honestly do feel that he is not reaching out because he doesn't want to deal with drama and that is probably his assumption. I've never flat out ignored him for this long. So he probably misses me but thinks that since it has been so long I must be really furious.
I don't know.
Can't I just say "I miss you"
Won't he think I am bi-polar, mental case if I just randomly say "hi" after a week of NC? That seems weird to me.
All I know is the more I wait the more desperate I am getting. I just want to talk to him.
