It hurts so much...

[Babygirl]

hugs!! I understand the wanting to out the affair, wish I could out the ow to her man, wait she dont have one. I could to thier boss, but that would get my H fired also.
I am also in the boat of what is H really doing, today, it happened again, and I wanted to smack myself, instead of waiting for my buds here to do it. it was the reality of that pit and my feelings when he is aware of how it makes me feel, and that I am justified in those feelings because of steps he took in life, not me, but that I WONT go to that place again! (ok I say that today, later tonite or tomorrow, who knows!)
I follow my gut, its more truthful, and trustable, but I choose me at this point today, and my children. I cant control him or her, of course they are gonna lie, DUH pup always says its like a drug, I finally have seen that in the past 5 days. I agree lies hurt worse than knowing about the A especially when its still going on. I only confront with enuff ammo to no matter what they say, I know and they know I know. I personally dont regret it, others here do.
She is on the drug of the om at this point, it sucks, but concentrate on you and if you have children them, its not about them, and I truly learned that this weekend, it is about us. we cant control them, but lets gripe and vent to eachother, and constantly make them wonder. it took me a while to see that, but I have, and many here have also. you arent alone, HERE you are safe and with friends.
you do what you have to do, but know you arent alone!
hugs!
babygirl