Thanks for the affirmation. I also think it is a good thing for me to have reached this point. However, I do have to say as I was going back and cleaning out my e-mail box, I came across some e-mails from W back in early January when she was excited to be w/ me again and had broken things off w/ the 1st OM for the 1st time.
It made me a little sad b/c of where we were and then where we ended up roughly 3 weeks later. The whole thing was sad. However, I think I'll always have some saddness about me over this entire thing. It is something that will be a part of my life, but it won't consume me or control my decisions. My saddness is no longer about regret, but just about a saddness over a loss that I did all I could to prevent.
I know now that you can only save yourself. The others have to want to save themselves for themselves. Too many of us are stuck in situations where we're the only ones who were willing to try.
I tried. I'm moving on. It is sad, but it will also be better for me as I'm better for having gone through this hell.
