You can thank cookie for that line I slapped on my signature. I did it because I thought it sounded fun yet impossible. Seeing it daily builds confidence... Not that I'm the best catch around, but I chose my behavior from calm rather than fear.
Last night I got into a tizzy thinking of the conversation he and I had. Once again, I believed he took whatever I said for his advantage. Part of me believes he is raking me over the coals for his own agenda.
Maybe he's not. But my 'woe me, I cannot trust you because you always told the truth and turns out you've lied so I don't know what is the truth or lie from you anymore' makes sure I maintain a wary attitude.
Life will be much much better when it's not me versus him, or what he did to me. Life will be much better when it's about how I life, strive and try, sing, fall and flaw. When I'm just me not burdened with a burlap bag of tears.
