...I left her really shaking my head thinking about what she is thinking of doing. Is this a stress thing or a depression thing? Is it a reaction to not being happy? Or, is it just desparation because there isn't anyone hiring in her field right now?
I think there is more going on here than simply wanting to become a truck driver...
I would answer your questions as "yes, yes, yes and yes".
I believe that she probably is looking to simplify her life. She may think that it is a mindless job that she could perform without major responsibilities by transporting something from Point A to Point B. When she is off work, she doesnt have to think about work again until she is on the job once again.
Unfortunately, it will probably be nice for her (if she does it) for a very short time. She will get bored pretty quickly if she was used to a more dynamic and involved type of job.
The "masculine" perception of the job may be something to consider but, again, if she is more feminine, she may not like it long term because of the typecast.
IMO, it shows that she is still not a "happy" person who is desperately searching for the "answer". Until she has one of those defining moments where she realizes that happiness is not a destination, she will continue being depressed since it is elusive.
The irony is that she was much closer to having a sense of peace within her family of you and the kids. Instead of working on that relationship to make it as good as it can be, she ran away to something much worse.
I don't think her success or failure at being on her own will change the fact that she will still search. She could be very successful in taking care of herself and developing new friendships but it will never be enough.
Like the often used comparative, we can be a lighthouse for our spouse, that when they are finished with their travels, we can be a place to come home to (and to avoid the rocks where they can hurt themselves).
Continue being the lighthouse for her, Imageer.
mmf
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God
