Have some more things I want to say, and still want to go back to Bill and Forrest's posts because they made me think of more things.
While I have time right now I just want to finish telling about the weekend. Nothing too unusual, but a couple more of her "backslides".
Saturday was her brother's birthday party. We worked and met at home to change. Her younger brother rode with us. The last time we had been to a large gathering like this was actually my birthday at home back in August.
I told myself I would give her some space that evening. Her brother is close in age and there would be some old mutual friends of their's, family of that neither had seen in a while, her other brother that I get along well with.
Just wanted to let her be that "social butterfly" that she is when she is around other people, so I tried not to be stuck to her side all night....and not that I was testing her, but I wanted to see if I got that same "seeking out H" that I saw the last couple of times we were in these sitches.
This was an outdoor party and it was easy at times to lose track of where someone was....inside, outside, front yard or back...under the tent.
She had invited "best friend"(I am better with her now...more on that later), so she was there and they spent a lot of time together.
As the night went on I saw the same thing I had seen before. That little internal time or distance meeter she has....I never looked for her, nor did I seek her out during the night, but she was never too far away....grabbing my arm to introduce me to someone...asking me to walk her to the other end of the yard because it was dark and she did not want to step in a hole in the grass.
Several of us had plans to go out after the party...W and I, the best friend and 2 other couples....to a tavern up the road. There were DD's and best friend was along for the night and supposed to spend the night at our house.
Same deal at the bar that I saw at the party. Seems I gave her way more space than she wanted and came to my side several times while we were there as I was talking with someone, or off playing pool, etc.
At one point while I was outside by myself having a smoke she came out looking for me....put her arm around me, kissed me on the cheek and said "what are doing out here all alone...are you avoiding me tonight?".....I just gave her a silly look, told her she was crazy and she dragged me back inside with her arm locked around mine.
During the night I also had a short talk with the best friend. She asked how I was doing and I told her..."plugging away..you know...it's hard, this limbo deal".
She said "keep doing what you are doing...you are doing fine". I wanted to ask what she meant, or maybe get some more thoughts about what my wife might have said to her about us, but stopped it there. I really don't want to know....good news would be fine, but why let words from someone else affect what I am doing now.
Ok...have to get back to work....some more stuff from Sunday, but the big thing there was the "you and me" comment that I already mentioned. The day itself was one of our patented ones.
We stayed home together all day. I went grocery shopping for us and went to visit my mother in the morning....she cooked dinner, I made home made margaritas and snacks for the football games.
A great day....football...good food...lots of laughing and talking....she was close and affectionate...at times pulling me to her, hugging me and kissing.
