H is having affair after all - part 3

[Evie]

Seek,

Thank you for stopping by - I have being worried about you, are you ok?

Move went well, i sold on the 12th Aug and moved on 12th Sept - is that a record?

I had an army of people to help me, we had a good plan. My male friend came along with his van (quiet hero of the day, couldn't have done it without him).

H stayed out of the way and dug up plants from the garden and was obviously getting more and more upset as the day went on. I put the emotion aside, i was with friends who have helped me get through the last 18months and they helped me laugh the day away.

From that night on though, H has bomberded me with Texts and emails. He said i treated him like Sh*t and as i hadn't treated anybody else like it it was obviously done without thought, he said he saw qualities in me that day that he didn't like and never in a thousand years thought he would see. After that he used the business and the boys as whipping tools. I didn't respond until the monday when i apologised for any upset caused, i said i had a job to do, that he of all people would know what it meant for me to move out of my family home. I said i was sorry that he couldn't accept my apologies. I told him I had loved him with all my heart and he had broken it and when he had calmed down we needed to talk as there were things that i needed to say that i havent been able to say for the last 12 months.

What i really resisited the temptation to say was - 'you f**king ar*se who the f**k do you think you are?. I was with my friends on friday, people who have helped me get through the last 18 months, you are not my friend and who in a million years would have thought you would have f**ked off and had an affair. I have seen far worse qualities in you in the 2 years than you have seen in me in 1 day. Any anger or hurt you feel, multiply by a zillion and thats a fraction of how i feel.

Anyway we have all settled in, the house is smaller, but its mine!! i can breathe again, no longer do i have to worry that he will walk in at any time. i can leave private stuff out..

BUT - He wont leave me alone - any excuse to email/phone/text..

I had to take my calming pills all last week - not good

WHY is he like this???? This is what he wanted...He wants a divorce - so why??

He is really stressed, he has cold sores - sure sign of been stressed. I had to deal with packing up the majority of the house, deal with the kids and my own emotions and the purchase of my new house??