5 weeks remain til next chapter starts

[istherehope]

Hi JCJ,

I did talk to Jody about this last week. To be honest even she wasn't exactly sure what I should do. She said that I COULD try telling him that I had heard everything he'd said, understood that we weren't emotionally married at the moment, and that I was coming home for financial reasons so that we could continue to maintain the house and our bills, especially highlighting his tuition. However we both think that if he does decide to come to Poland, this could improve the dynamic. So, I am trying to wait a week or 2 before formulating a plan to see if he does make this decision.

We also talked about whether I should prolong my time away, by maybe taking some vacation days in the US. At this point it seemed to make sense for me to come home at the time where he has the most going on, and is the least likely to freak out. He has a week long break right after I am due to come back. This would give him time to sit around and ruminate. So, unless something major happens in the next couple of weeks, I may stay longer in the US and come back in the middle of his school week, so that there is less of a chance of him going ballistic and moving to a friend's house or something. The very best thing would be if we never had to to talk about it and I just returned home as he said "I want to just LIVE!" as if he were a teenager or something...Avoiding R talks is definitely the best.

Anyway, still hoping some inspiration will strike, or my distance with H will create some kind of miracle. I may even go to the US without telling him anything about it at all. Ugh, just starting to worry about my career as I have basically been "on break" for the past 3 months,

ITH