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[MsMelancoly]

Well, my week with the hotrod is over. I had a very nice week. I went & got a tattoo, drove to lakefront, tried to fly a kite (it's much harder than I remember), took 2 other short trips & went out to a club for a bit.

When my H came over to trade cars back we had a drink & chatted for about 20 min. We chit chatted a bit and then he brought up getting an annullment again. (He's been talking to his mum & his mum says it isn't fair. She said if something would happen to me, he would get my house & that isn't right & if something would happen to him, I would get his debt - which isn't right). I said if we don't use lawyers we can just get a divorce if that's what he wants. (He's worried about lawyer expense). I said if he didn't have the time or want to make the time to work on our M, then we can divorce. I'm leaving it totally up to him. He asked if he had to decide right now & I said no & that I didn't expect him to decide right now. I said in this past year with working on myself I've also been trying to handle things differently. I also said by going to counseling I learned, that we never asked each other how we were really feeling, how our hearts felt. I told him that for some reason, that I thought what I wanted, was what he wanted and that was wrong of me to assume. I said it was strange because when we were dating he was in total control of when we would see each other & for how long & we would decide together what to do. Somehow that changed. He said he never thought about that.

Personally, I think there are a lot of things about our M & friendship that he hasn't thought about. I believe that he has spent the past year trying not to think of it.