A solid weekend for myself and he kids. I am tired. Tough to work 6 days a week and then be exhasted on the 7th. I will do anything to protect my children. I do not think my wife realizes how she has now brought out the intense fighter in me. I do not trust her anymore and question everything.
I found out recently that her indiscretions have been ongoing for some time. She has only the ability to maintain basic relationships sexually--and could never develop any deep bonds. That was fatal for us to ever being together.
The only honest hing she has done was asking for a divorce. Otherwise, we have been living a lie for a long time. I am now beginning to find some inner peace, but still do cry when I think about the few happy times. It hurts that I am now excluded from previous friendships with couples and kids. I can deal with the rejection, but I do not know where to go from here as I do miss that interaction which inclued my children
I will be strong for myself and the kids. A new week is coming and the unknown is staring me in the face. I intend to meet it with adversity, strength and conviction that i am right and will overcome. (easier said than done...)
