Hi guys sorry so quiet. Soooooo, ya wanna hear my retarded weekend. Yup messed up-Hee hee. Oh well. Ok in a minute.

So I agree with calling the police and at least having a record of all this weird behavior with OW Husband. Not cool at all. You could tell him face to face-in a friendly way of course-that your a bit uncomfortable with the interactions. can't hurt, maybe he's unaware of the inappropriateness of it all-I know seems lame that he wouldn't know but who knows maybe .
I agree with the moving out thing maybe being a benefit to you. Like I told you that actually seeing my H weekend before last totally screwed me up-cried half half that week. Hard seeing the man who's done this and yet you still love them. But it made me realize that for now, seeing him is not for the best. He's not the man I knew anyways. But for now I'm going to have to get used to it as he plans to go to every game.

Sounds like everyone is doing great at GAL'ing. I go to a 3hour salsa class on Sunday. I am planning to return to the gym at least 3 days next week.
I can relate to the stress and sadness. I decided to cry when I need to but not too much. I'm going to gang bust in the thought stopping department. The bible says that our minds hate the things of God so I'm gonna try my best regardless of the outcome to stop all thoughts that do not promote well being and blessings to my life and family. yes it's very hard. But so is living with my mind dictating every minute of my life.

I've lost 10lbs since finding out, but I went from a size 7 to a 3 so I think I just need to firm up and actually its a good time to because every holiday season I put on weight. My H did comment at the start that I did get small.

So ya wanna hear my crash and burn guys (HA Ha aha ha ha aha a . Ok so I go on Saturday(yesterday) to son's 2nd game. I'm a bit disturbed because of last weeks game when he ran around with his shirt off-oh yeah did i mention he sent a 3rd pic of himself with out a shirt!!!!! I told my daughter thats it either you address or I will. so she did and hopefully he gets it or otherwise I'm gonna have to stop this..so MLC. Anyways so my son visits with him while Im standing there and he wants to give my son a football and I say oh you can play with the one I got you 2 months ago(I know bad). then all follow him to his car and he says well I'll just meet you there. Then I say why did you bring the whores car?(he doesnt have a personal vehicle). (I know really bad) Ok gets better. Then I say ok we have to go soon son because we have plans, and H say you always have plans. And we kinda mutter at each other and my son says what did he say mom and I say nothing he's being a butt hole. Then he says well I dont want this to be difficult and spout off what the heck do you mean it's already difficult then we drive off. Yuck hated the way I behave(although nothing compares to the vile angry disgusting lashing out that I have gotten from him. My Pastor saw one of his emails and said it disturbed him on how angry he was. Anyways I was so disappointed in my behavior I sent an email apology. Ok it gets worse. In my apology I say you know I can handle seeing you and being married to you I think I should move on can you give me money to file.
So out of all that he said he apologized for snapping at me at the game made some small talk about my son and said nothing about the money to file. I know I shouldn't have said it but man Uggg! One guys said to me this guys is waffling. He knows you will be there no matter what you need to stick it to him and shock him. I wasn't a controller. I apologized even if it wasn't my fault so I had no back bone. I just cowered to what ever his mood dictated. Anyways tomorrow is a new day. Start again. IT's a thought stopping GAL week....sorry for blabbing.


Me-38 H-38
Married 18years
Daughter-17 & Son-9
Discovery of EA/PA 4/23/08
Left home 5/08/08
Moved in with OW 08/01/08

The only rock I know that stays steady, the only institution I know that works is the family.
-- Lee Iacocca