Kissak -- we love pretty deeply dont we. I too feel EXACTLY teh same way you do about my xh. that since ow is suppose to be out of the picture now that I would become an option - and i am not..so I do understand how you feel..It is weird isn't it.
Keep going moving working towards forward. you are so much strong than you were 6 months ago....you are doing what is good for you with those papers--
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again