So may I ask what your issues were?? What led to the distance between you both?
My friend all the things you are feeling now are normal. My sitch was similar...H and I had been leading separate lives while living in the same house so why I missed it so much when I didn't hear his car pulling in the driveway is beyond me. Have you read the DB book? If you haven't go get it and read it...look at the Last Resort Method.
There is no way to tell what your future holds, but let me tell you this. It's been almost 4 months since my H left and I started coming to this site. When I would read the words I just wrote to you it was like a punch in the gut because I wanted assurance and wanted to know it would all work out...hearing the future was an unknown made me crazy. Now, a relatively short time later, knowing that the end result of my R is still pretty unknown doesn't strike fear in my heart like it did before. My advice to you is this....no matter how depressed and sad you are...DO NOT put off getting a life. I don't mean signing up for eharmony or going bar hopping, but I mean enjoying things with your kids. Go for an ice cream...take a walk...see a movie...have lunch with girlfriends. At first you will feel like your heart isn't in it and you won't enjoy it much, but the more you do it...the more joy you experience. These happy times will help you when you do have to deal with H in that you won't come across as so desparate and dependant upon him for your happiness.
Hang in there...we're all here for you! We can truly say we know how you feel.
