He shared that the C he saw a year ago, told him that he needed to leave me, since I'm the only one he does this with, that the only answer would be to 'not be around me'.
Well, I'm not a C but him only doing this to you makes perfect sense to me. You're the only one he's married to! The only answer isn't for him to not be around you, it is to seriously address his need to have total power over his partner, imo. Otherwise he'll just end up doing the same thing with the next person he's with. But that isn't your issue. You shouldn't be taking it on and it sounds like you are, to a certain extent.
I don't know. I don't feel like I can say too much more without appearing negative and anti-DB, but I think you should respect yourself and your life.
I'm glad you have small tasks to take your mind off things. That helps, at least it does for me. And don't worry too much about having to put on a face - we all do it to get through the rough times. If you need time, though, don't be afraid to take it. No sense in being a martyr.
