AG - thanks for all the confidence boosters. I need them!
What I think is hardest right now is the XW and I work in the same place. She is extremely adept at suppressing her emotional side to concentrate on work - he11 she's been doing that for the last 8 months! She's also a very social person, in that surface, small-talk way. Which is great - she's nice, beautiful, and extremely smart. Fun to be around. Of course, you don't find out she's non-empathetic and emotionally stunted until you really get to know her.
But, my point is, she's coming out of this as the golden girl. Success after success in the eyes of our co-workers. And this has been happening since the day she moved out. Meanwhile I've been a wreck. It's okay, I'm getting over all that now, but I hate feeling put in a position of comparison. I feel like people are saying, "I can see why she D'ed him." And maybe that's just my state right now, I don't know. And it'd probably be better if I went somewhere else. Eventually.
Thinking aloud, but I do need to rein in that inner voice that has been awfully critical these past few months and remind it that there are a lot more positive topics it could be running through my head.
