Thanks again for keeping an eye on me and your cyberhugs. I am trying to keep busy ..... spending time with D7, went out golfing yesterday (D7 was with her aunt / SIL), taped the Ryder cup matches (watched the late at night), NFL today......in spite of all that, there are moments (quiet moments) where W and all her lies come to the surface. I know things will slowly get better but as much as I am trying to stay dark, it is difficult to keep W out of my mind. I did notice yesterday that SIL would not look me in the eye....obviously she knew what was going on all along. W calls every morning to chat....not sure at this point if she is just gauging my mood after my "discovery". She knows what i know....i pretty much spelled it out for her. How a person can put herself in a position that she did and then take it to the next level.....I will never understand (especially with a person from another country). it is obvious that she has no moral fiber or that it is an MLC. I am leaning to the first option because she has had a year and a half to shake off the MLC. If we were in a court of law and I was on a jury...and presented the evidence, I would (without a doubt) lock her up and throw away the key. But in real life, I can not throw away the key yet. I am not sure that means that I am still hopeful (I am not)and the door is ajar......actually it will always be ajar....but it will take alot of pushing on her part to open it wider (I don't think her ego will ever allow her to do that). I made it clear to her that I want her to come clean....that I deserve at least that....maybe the real healing will start for me if and when she apologizes. Anyhow, W picks up D7 tonight at the apt., originally we were supposed to have a talk about the last year and a half....I seriously doubt that she will ever come clean. She can't because what she has done borders on CRAZY. Or maybe she can not becasue she thinks that if she does it will be extremely difficult for me to remain friendly with her. Sorry about the long post ... I just needed to put my thoughts on paper.
