Well I was gone a lot longer than expected. I had a good time with my friend. So it was a good GAL day but now my rollarcoaster is back down again. . .
I went to the library today instead of the bookstore and the building my old apartment is in shares the parking lot. So that was hard. Really hard. I saw that no one lives in ours yet. Made me want to rewind even more. I got all teary in the parking lot. I hate feeling sad about all this when it feels like I am out of control. It just brought back a lot of memories.
Another day with no contact from him. I can't believe it. 4 days go by and not a peep.
I know I should think of this as a good thing. I am strong for not reaching out, gives me time to GAL, yada yada.
I just want my hubby back.
He does drive me nuts and doesn't make sense to me sometimes but I love him dearly and life without him is making me insane! I just want to tell him I am sorry for not respecting him on Tuesday and that I really do want to find a way to deal with our problems. I can negotiate. I can be a nice wifey. Love me? Please?
