So I emailed him and told him I thought it was best for us not to talk anymore but I told him that I thought we could work something out with visitation for our D I just don't want her to get caught in the middle. I went on to explain to him that I wanted her life to be as normal as possible and that he needed to understand that she is a teenager now and it's normal for her to want to spend more time with her friends. That said, when it is one of "his nights" I didn't want her to have to turn down social events just as I would not expect her to do so on "my nights".
I also told him that I was sorry things turned out the way they did and that he didn't think marriage counseling was a worthwhile endeavor and felt he had to leave the way he did, but that I'm embracing my new life and whatever comes my way. I wished him the best in life and asked him to go and take his name of my bank account.
He called later to talk to D...I told him she was out and then politely ended the convo. About 5 minutes later I got a text from him saying he had so much to say but as usual couldn't get his mind to slow down long enough for him to put his thoughts in words. He said he appreciated me being willing to work with him on the possibility of his new schedule but he had already called and turned the job down...that it was probably bad timing. He ended with "I guess you are right about our D growing up...it's hard to let go" and then said..."I'll take my name off your account first thing Monday. Thanks!"
Gosh....it feels like I'm really moving on and getting some closure. I'm happy and I'm sad....I'm grieving the loss of the future I planned for myself. Our D is at the age when he and I could actually start spending quality time with one another again as she is gone so much but that isn't going to happen now. I guess I'm finally starting to realize I might have the opportunity of that future with someone else. It's not my first choice but I know I will not stay alone forever and pine a way for a love that is not reciprocated.
