So who's really doing the cycling here - you or her?
Honestly, from what you wrote, I don't see her cycling. Perhaps a bit inconsiderate not to touch base with you tonight, but the rest of the week? I don't see cycling.
Except in you.
And be careful about creating what you fear.
OK...maybe cycling is the wrong word, and maybe indeed it is me creating the cycle....creating what I fear. This week I could almost believe that.
Beginning of the week, close and relaxed...middle of the week a little distance, then Thursday, no contact and goes out for the evening without letting me know.
By you guys saying "be careful of creating what you fear", or "if you feel it they can see it", what I need to believe and work on myself is what I think I did this week.
I have been saying that there was this relaxed atmosphere...we had seemed to settled into an almost normal routine. Still going out and having some fun, still doing some crazy things at home, and some nights just sitting around and watching TV.
You guys said there was "movement", and I wanted to see it, but in my mind I was thinking that I was due for a down cycle...that it was too good to be true that she was actually starting to come around.
I figured that I had been here before...the fun, the talks...the nights in the kitchen cooking and being a couple...the ML. When it had reached these high points in the past, there would be a down day...couple of days, or a week.
I was waiting for it and expecting it, and thought to myself that I got through the other hundred, I will get through this one.
Instead of going with the flow, directing some focus back on myself and working on GAL, I focused on wondering when the good times were going to stop and she would hit the wall again.
Now, I am not saying I believe that 100%. I want to understand if that is what you have been trying tell me and that is what you think is happening....I am hitting the wall...I am making her hit the wall...what?
