yes I am looking into therapy definately I have alot of issues to deal with, I do carry alot of guilt from the past, going to A.A. and church helps get a little of it out, to answer happysomeday I have really been focusing on my relationship with God, this whole set of circumstances has really made me do a 180, it's one trial after another, I know the outcome I would like but I had to put it in His hands at sit back and watch what he does, but at the sametime work on myself daily and yes growth is very painful and really hurts there isn't a day that goes by that I don't loose it but I am also very grateful that this has happened otherwise I would most likely still be drinking I hope I can be as helpful to others as you people have been to me it's always nice to come home and see that someone has responded
