Always conforting to know I am not the only one having these kinds of thoughts.
I know I say nasty things to him too sometimes but I just can't seem to wrap my brain around how many cruel things they say and I know we are not supposed to believe it but I want to know why they say it if they don't mean it! WTF! Just to make us sad and hurt?
I think in my case my hubby says cruel things when he doesn't want to talk about something. He figures that if he is mean enough eventually he will drive me away and he can be alone and not deal with the issue. You would think I would see that and learn to leave him alone but my deep fear is that we will never solve anything if we don't talk about things, even the hard and unpleasant topics. I should have done this on Tuesday. I should have just let it go! I know there is no point dwelling on the past.
They toe the line and push the boundaries and say all sorts of horrible things in the process and yet we are the loonies putting up with it! Argh!!!
