I downgraded the venue and made it very clear to MG that this really is just a friend thing.

So stupid, really. I am going thru all these mental gymnastics and for what? Could be that when we actually hang out we don't get along. Who knows?

I am angry at my H for putting me in a position where I find it necessary to wonder what I should do. I shouldn't even need to think about this. I *should* be with my f'ing husband. GRRRR!

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing