Since you are Christian, I would love to give some advice from my experience, I mean advice from another brother.
First, you FOCUS on God! I mean really "focus". You will find the WAY to complete healing. I'm not saying I'm healed completely but I feel that only God can do. Healing is long process and you have go through a lot of mountain such as depression, loneliness, forgiveness and etc. Don't worry about future but only focus on the present in Jesus.
Second, you'll be changed once you understand what the words of God means. " Be anxious for nothing " The past of you will be gone and new you will be born! Be honest with yourself and you can start new life today.
Thirdly, make good friends who can support you without putting you down.
Lastly, do exercise daily basis if you can.
I'm still hurting pretty bad. I still dream my W and miss my family terrible. However, if I hadn't have this crisis, I would never have found my faith. And this ongoing pain allows me to grow in Jesus. So I'm really thankful for that. I hope your pain subsides and see the truth ASAP. I'll pray for you!
