my children are with my first wife I don't have any with the second, and she has made it very clear that it is completely over and I don't think that no matter of time will change that, she doesn't even know that I exist, she says she is very happy without out me that I made her feel like s--t about herself, why would she ever want to reconcile. I know I am a good person and even if I could walk on water it would not matter to her she has completely shut me out, I was fooling myself into thinking otherwise,, I guess because she loved me so much before I thought maybe there was something left but I guess not, I live in a small town so not much opportunity for growth that I see as of yet I will have to be creative, this whole thing has me so screwed up that I have a hard time being a good father, I feel like I am obsessing I wish I could get her out of my mind and emotions for good...................
