Thanks John. Actually, I'll feel better for having taken action instead of just sitting around hoping that my DBing efforts will pay dividends. I will feel better in that I will have gotten a reference point back to a place where I can trust myself. I'll know that she was lying and I can quiet the little voice that wants it to not be happening.
I often wonder if the unfaithful spouses ever think about what their kids are going to think of them when they are older or if they somehow think that the kids will never find out. I think that surely my wife can't be that deluded. Everyone knows about her Dad's affairs when he was married to her Mother. Perhaps that too is a reason that she doesn't want to admit it. Then I wonder, does she think that if we get divorced that I'm going to agree to some nice sanitary story about why? I'm no saint, but, I was working my butt off trying and there are things that I'm not proud of, they don't begin to compare to what she's doing. So, I'm not going to run around telling the whole world, and I'm certainly not going to say anything to my kids right now, they are too young, but, I'm not going to hide the truth from them when they are older.
Maybe I should sit down and put to paper a nice long narrative about the last year and even about the things I've done over the years and include with it things like transcripts of her text messages etc. and keep it for when the kids are older and want to know why I divorced their Mom and destroyed their world.
