letting go

[artteach]

My friends are good about this supportative of my decison to try and work this out, but they would be equally supportative of my leaving too. H did come by and we had a few minutes to talk and he asked what is up with me. I was not going to bring it up but I did, very calmly, I said, "I got this month's phone bill" I asked if he really thought he was ever going to give her up. He said of course and when I told him that he calls her much more than she calls him he did look at least embarassed about it and said, next month you will see the difference. I reminded him that I have been fairly patient with this, and he agreed. I never raised my voice or got upset or anything but I did say that it still feels like you are choosing her over me. He said no. He kissed me goodbye and I asked if he was mad that I brought it up, he said no and kindof made a joke. So we left on decent terms and I do feel better about bringing it up and I am glad I did not blow up or cry and anything like that, which is what he has been seeing a lot lately from me. Going to let it drop this weekend and hopefully we will have a good one.