Bring on the Rain - Part 5

[SueS]

Good morning-

It's been pretty quiet around home. Nothing too exciting. Not sure if I mentioned it, but my FIL is out of the hospital. He'll have to go back for some tests on his heart, but he's feeling better.

H has been kind of up and down. Not angry, just talkative, then quiet. I asked him the other night what he had told OW about us trying to work things out. He said that he hadn't told her much and that he hasn't talked to her in "quite a while". I'm not so ready to believe that, as I know it's not easy to just give that up, although I had noticed contact between them (at least from my perspective) had slowed quite a bit. H actually started talking to me about wanting to buy a house for us. He sent me several listings to look at and wanted to know if I liked any of them. I told him that this weekend we should sit down and make a list of the things that we want & want to do in the future....some goals to make things work this time. It's something we've never really done. He agreed that it was a good idea. And, I got the first ILY that I've gotten in months. Neither one of us has put our rings back on. I mentioned to him that I'd almost like to start new.....new rings....a new chapter. It's like our old rings have too much negative thoughts attached. Maybe that sounds silly, but I just have a hard time thinking about putting on old one back on.

Starting....your comment about hoping that my H is for real and isn't still involved with OW goes through my mind a lot. I think about that too. Is this for real? Is he just playing me and doing a really great job at it? I love him and want to make this work but I'm scared to death at the same time. I'm strong enough now that I can get through it if it all falls apart. I know I can. I just would rather have my family together. I know I'm not ready to leave this forum though.

Not much set up for the weekend. H and I were originally planning on getting a babysitter and doing dinner/movie. We've been on the run so much lately though that we decided we'd just relax instead. Our place is a mess and things still need to be hung up, put away...etc. I did what felt like a month's worth of laundry last night too. AAAHHH! I decided that I don't really like laundry all that much :).

Have a great day/weekend everyone.

...Sheila..I'll email you soon.

-SueS