Looking for some more patience!

[kissak]

Thanks you guys. Thank you so much for offering me words of encourgement. I really needed it today.

You know, I am lucky to have the home we made for our children. Although it was the 4th home me and my H lived in, it has been the only one our children have lived in. I am ok in regards to the house. I am staying there because it is a nice home. If I sold it, I would have to then find a place large enough to rent. Honestly for what I pay in a house payment, I would pay the same in rent. Financially, I am better off to stay in the home. I could never move and have what I have now at a cheaper price.

Youre right though Cagzmom, I do feel happy when my H is down and I feel down when he is happy.

I guess right now I am dealing with the fact that even though him and the OW arent together anymore, he still has no desire to come home. I guess deep down I have been hoping if she werent in the picture, he may think about it. Well, actually he did think about it, but I said No.

I am giving him the separation papers today to give to his lawyer for the final draft. It is another step towards the way I dont want to go. Even though it saddens me to give him the papers, it will also be some sort of relief too. Cant explain that.

I feel like my H will want to come back one day. It may take 10 years though and that is what makes me sad. Im not going to sit around and wait for him.