Just journaling because I'd like to add some positives to my otherwise negative last few posts. I am going to list out my September goals that were met. These all have to do with my H, but they are what I want to focus on at the moment, and there were things that I did to help increase the likelihood of these things happening:
-H will comment on the positive changes he has seen within me -H will say that he has not felt pressured recently -H will say that he wants to continue having biweekly joint sessions (even though I don't now!) -H will bring up a trip to Poland of his own accord -H will start using pleasantries in contact, how are yous etc -H will use nicknames with me again (every once in awhile) -We will have sex and he will initiate -H will joke around with me sometimes -H will say that all of our interactions have been pleasant and comfortable
OK these are my positives. I am having a very hard time now not reaching out to H, but I will hang tight for awhile longer, actually as long as it takes until he wakes up or I get back to Dublin. Jody said something interesting yesterday that the rest of you might want to know. She said that when people write their spouses letters, 97% of the time there is no response, or no positive response. I am dying to write a letter, so really glad she told me this...
Alright, I should try to do SOME work now...
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
