Daisy, I do think you're right that H is mad because I'm not reacting the way he expected me to. Jody said that he is likely softening to me, and this makes him angry because he had felt better about the way things were given his first perception of me--the new perception has thrown him off. I really like that example with your H. That was really helpful.
Pisces, I am feeling more detached from his anger, only still nervous about my return to Dublin and how I will pull this off. Crossing my fingers we have Poland in the interim to test the waters. I also agree that nothing in our sitch warrants his level of rage. I mentioned this to Jody and we agreed that he was as angry as if I had had an A or something. Maybe that would warrant this level of rage. The rage does help me to see that this is definitely his problem, and I am not feeling that guilty anymore, which is a good thing. I just hope HE doesn't start feeling too guilty.
In fact last night, about 20 minutes after I posted this, I was online and H was on IM at school. I shut the computer down partially because I was annoyed and pretty sick of seeing him online from school for some reason. It just reminded me of our life together, me being at home in the evenings and him being at school. This morning I see he tried to IM me. "Hi just saying hi, how are you doing?" "Oh you're not online, ok saying bye now, bye". Whatever. I love how he tells Jody things are better now because we talk less but he is always reaching out. That makes twice that he wanted to see how I was doing yesterday. Yes, I think he is either feeling guilty or seeing if I am going to say something. My guess is he expects me to say something OR to mention Poland, neither of which are going to happen.
OK I'll post later with any updates. As usual, I will remain dark from my end...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
