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[HopefultotheEnd]

I am tired. The whole evening went fine but it was exausting.

Just having her there and figuring out what to do with myself was tiring, I did ok but it was stressful.

Budget went as I expected...but not so much the talks. We did the numbers as we stand now, and then did a whole set where we split everything.

W said that she didn't want to leave me out when she gets the new job with it's higher salary. She wants to pay off our bills together since we got the debt togerther. Would I be stupid to consider this if she were pulling her weight financially?

I mentioned splitting our finances and she asked..."I wonder how that works in a divorce? You did mean divorce right?" I said "not really, but sure..." and then directed the conco back to the numbers.

Then, she says I can always sell my ring...and looks down at her hand as she twists her wedding ring. That's right she was wearing it. I'm an idiot and ask her, "Why are you wearing it?" (dumbass) and she just replies, "Because I like it and I want to." At this point my brain caught up and I switched back to the budget.

Last thing. W asked me if I was angry at her because I was acting "cold" to her with my short email replies and acting distant tonight etc. I said that I didn't mean to come across as "cold" and left it at that. I thought I was being pretty happy but I was a bit distant.

She left and gave me a hug, I started to pull away first but ended up huging her back. Perhaps not the best dark I can muster but it's better than "cold"