Wow- I can't even imagine the ride you have taken today with all this!!! I'm glad you were able to confront H about the gossip and he was able to reply back to you in an appropriate manner---and if your gutt tells you to believe him, then do. You wonder why you feel sad--because just when you thought you had all your emotions in check you were thrown for a loop and now know that this can happen again--your emotions may get tossed around from time to time--the key to remember is that you are constantly working on you and your M with H--it's a long road from forgiveness--but I don't think we ever forget, we can put it in the back dark parts of our minds--to a place that only something like this will bring it to the front of our minds...!! Hang in there--you have done nothing wrong and your emotions/feelings are totally normal and justified!! And Clearly H has a deep love for you and wants to make things right between the two of you.
You did make me chuckle with your remark to how surprised you are at how "UGLY" she is each time you see her--the OW is always UGLY!!! Guess some aren't--but in my case she is butt ugly too--and everyone has made it a point to tell H this--just in case he is experiencing vision problems!!! Actually, I think it makes them feel better to be with someone "less than" themselves because it helps to justify what they are doing!!! I tend to look at it as, I know I'm the better woman from all angles!!! Eat your heart out H!!! Cheer up T!! It will get better and I still see great things and a happy ending for you both!!! A new job for H would be perfect and would help to alleviate any doubts/concerns you may still be having!!! Take Care, Pam
