San... I read your thread and I sympathise very deeply with your pain. I too am so hurt and confused at my wife's incredibly heartless, selfish and cruel behaviour. I just wrote this little poem... silly really... but maybe it might help you to see how there really are people who understand how you feel.
The promises and touches, The words to bring back smiles, The nights spent out together, And the trips for miles and miles
And all the while I’m hurting, But afraid to speak my mind, So I put it off and smile back, And pretend she’s being kind
The days and nights go quickly, And my soul cries out to speak, But just wait until a new day, Even though it makes me weak
What game is this she’s playing? And am I right to see… Her eyes sometimes look distant Maybe her thoughts are not with me
So on and on the game goes, And all the time I hide And then she walked away again And it was only me who cried
