Yeah, pretty bad ASSumption on my part, enit? I guess now I need to explain that "enit" is the Indian version of you Canadians saying "eh".
I know most of the responsibility is mine for making assumptions and thinking I'm his mind reader. That tendency of mine was being compounded with the way he was very uncommunitive about important matters---which put me in the habit of trying to always guess and read between the lines.
I don't know why I still freak myself out worrying, but I do. More mind reading on my part, I guess, but because H has described how he felt so much stress living with us (problems in our R and day-to-day of living with teenagers) and how much of his MLC centered around craving solitude...I guess I'm guessing that he must feel fear and pressure about coming home.
On the other hand, I'm noticing that every time he stays over, he's leaving a few more of his things behind. Also, we talked a bit more about the logistics of getting (legally) married. We want small, but with some traditional elements. H suggested that his oldest son be best man and my oldest give me away. I said I have a step-dad to give me away, and that scenario leaves the younger two boys out of the equasion so I think all 4 sons should be BEST MEN. That would be cool.
I also have been asking H to go get sized for a ring because that's something we have to think about way ahead. He's actually doing that today, no procrastination there so I don't know why I'm still worrying.
Maybe I'm the one having fear about him moving back in. I know that even though that's what I truly want, there will be some stress and anxiety in the change.
