BH, you sound very strong and great PMA! I'm so happy for you. I think that's right about the hugging-whatever you want to do that will make you feel good. If it bugs you don't; if you want to, do. I wouldn't worry about your H or any of that. Let go and drop that rope. It doesn't mean you can't pick it up later if you want, but it feels kind of good to drop the rope. ((((BH)))) Karen p.s. Haven't been dropping my pants lately although always keeping my options open. I am wearing a little bit tight/short clothes just for fun though!!! (Hey, it's hot in FL) You know anyone reading this right now prob. thinks something funny about me!!!