Homeward Bound!

[pisces9]

hi guys!
everything is going well. we are learning how to "communicate" better and my H is very into that.

he says things like- i want to make sure we are communicating or is everything ok? is that ok?, etc.

he is very aware of making sure we are on the same page.

i have struggled a bit with wanting to spend all my time with him. we pretty much spend a lot of free time together- but when we arent together- it is sort of a push pull thing where i want my space but i want to be with him too. i know it is good to do my own thing and i have been, its just a balancing act.

he wants to be with me a lot too. sometimes i get scared that he will be frustarted with me becuase he can get pissy and is still dealing with a lot of internal stuff and then i remember PMA and act as if. then everything works out fine. it really does.

he likes to talk a lot! its so funny...he really loves talking about everything..i alomost get overwhelmed from it! this is from a man who is not very open with much (except with me!).....

so overall things are amazing and i am very happy. he hasnt said ILY and still has his apt. i asked why he still had it and he said his saftey net- i said saftey net from what? and he didnt really reply. i just joked and said thats not really committing. so ill drop it and then im sure he will get rid of the apt. also i said ILY a few times- it slipped and i said you dont have to say it back. and he just giggles. so a little ways to go but all good.

we have a lot of transition in our lives right now with our house for sale, my brother and dad trying every which way to get me to react, im back in grad school, im burned out on my job and slowly winding that down. so its all very emotional. i think my H is smart in taking his (our)time to move back in fully (he is at home every night)!!

so as you can see im pretty sure my D is BUSTED! I know we have a life long journey ahead of us of learning and growing and with changes- but my H is home and he is a sweetie pie who just needs a lot of TLC and to be heard. and i just need to say what i need in a loving way too. thats all it really is- realizing we are all on this earth for a period of time and all of our experiences happen for a reason. i know that this for us was a very imprtant process and one i would not like to repeat , but one I look back on as the most important turning points in my (our) life.

please anyone reading this- your dreams can come true, you just have to be patient and love your spouse through their journey and make real changes within yourself.

this is, by far, the hardest thing i have ever done- but the single most rewarding thing i have ever done in my life!

xo xo P