Make no mistake -- THE STORM IS HERE. You can push thru it, or you can let it consume you.
That it is. I am sure that it going to get a lot worse before it gets better.
Yes, but not always. It's the LENGTH of the battle that I'm trying to get you to be aware of. It is PROTRACTED, and there's a reason they call this "The Rollercoaster." I see flurries of resolve from you, followed by apparent quitting, and I'm saying that will never work with this type of situation. IT'S A LONG HAUL, either way (divorce or reconciliation).
I don't mean to be preachy about your drinking -- that's up to you. Just trying to see you keep your wits about you. You will NEED time with your buds, and some diversion, every week. Just everything in moderation.