Still a mystery to me

[Mom of 2 Cherubs]

What is it you wanted me to say to you last night? I know we had some very good times and i feel incredibly guilty for the pain I have caused you. I tried to let the day go by yesterday as just another day.

I am still that person you fell in love with, I am warm and caring, just having a difficult time trying to be cordial and myself without sending the wrong impression. You and I were best friends and i wish we could still be but you see it as something more where i see it as a man that i still care deeply for but i don't wnat to be married to. We have history and that does mean something to me. I just don't know how to tell you that and still move forward.